please don't plaay with mee. - Saturday, January 31, 2009

ughh, home & finally awake and not dying.
went to tim hortons with matushh.
played more wii, and tmrw people are
coming over..and i have to play with them
KILL ME NOW? im dead, like apparantly?
I'M REALLY PALE, til my sis yelled at me
PSHHHHH. watched my dad play the wii,
HILARIOUS, time to sleep.

♥ ttyls.

let's play a lovegamee- -

BACK FROM LUNCH :)
i have...23 minutes to blog before going out again.

YESTERDAY? well I'm basically DEAD from yesterday. WOKE UP...really late :) and then I was printing off pictures from the computer, when my mom decided to tell me to go downstairs and play with the wii with Justin! To be honest? I'd never tried a Wii til then, and thought they were stupid! So @first, I was stuck playing tennis, and I was like, WTF THIS IS DUMB...then, we moved on to boxing! OHMYGOSH, it made my day, I was WAYY too into the game, but it was such good exercise, don't even know how long I played it for. MY ARMS..felt like jelly after, i could barely move my right arm, my left arm had to support it. So, after dinner, I went back down, and my mom wanted to try playing Tennis, IT WAS A HORRIBLE GAME. UGGGH. After, talked to Naz on the phone, FEEL BETTER NAZ. =) THEN, I went to shower & sleep :) ...but I had problems sleeping! :(

TODAY? I woke up @ 4...ended up on msn, talking to Adrian, Darius, Jiexi, and Bryan. I was thinking of going back to sleep, but ended up texting someone..ALOT. I couldn't go back to sleep til 7, then I woke up @ 10.30. Got ready, went for lunch :)

♥ ttyls.

the old me's dead and gone, but the new me will be alriight -

ughh, my whole body is SO sore.
i'm gonna cry, i can barely move.
waiting to go out to lunch!
okay, uncle's here,
will blog later, if i have time.

♥ ttyls.

Its gonna take a long time to love; Its gonna take a lot to hold on- Its gonna be a long way to happy? - Thursday, January 29, 2009

yes, we were randomly using 2 cameras =]
(pictures from saturday, there are wayy more but i'm lazy)

TOOODAYYYY =]

lalala, and that's how bad i look when i wake up.

Yes, I've had a really boring day. Sleeeping, Sleeeeping & MORE SLEEPING! =] YES, I'm lazy! I was suppose to go to the mall with Tasha & Chris, but I woke up too late, and just stayed in bed. When I finally got out of bed, my mom was watching love blossoms 2, so I joined her for a bit. Then, came into the room to use the laptop. My daddy just got mad at me for using the laptop, HE WASN'T HOME, why can't I? GOSHH. oh well, I'll get really mad at him if he puts the password back on, I don't like using my computer! Well, I don't mind it, but the laptop is way more convenient considering that...it's in my room. Yesterday, I decided to go buy songs off iTunes..that I could've just downloaded, I think my mom's gonna kill me when she sees her credit card bill! :( OHHHHWELLLLS :) but haha, I think I need a change in my attitude towards everything. I finally read my bible, and actually prayed so much today, and I feel way better than I have in the past 6 months. I need to be as happy as I was in the summer when I was in Singapore. Yes, I miss singapore, ALOT, but if my parents won't let me go back, I can't be negative for the next 2 years...I just wish my parents would understand me in some ways, but, TIME TO CHANGE MYSELF & have a closer walk with God, hopefully.

School counsellor is calling @ 3 tmrw to talk to my mommy :( AHH.

♥ ttyls.

iTunes is love - Wednesday, January 28, 2009

i absolutely absolutely love
downloading songs off iTunes =]
YAYY ME =]

hate you, will never forgive you. -

my parents not letting me go back to live in singapore?
something that they'll regret for their whole lives.
because i'll never forgive them for that.
the one thing i want the most,
they won't give me.
i hope you know i hate you for this

together - neyo ♥ -

LOVE; a fairytale in my old book of fantasy. -

(me & aunt)

(mom & me)

Exams are DONE =)

i'm so happy, i finally get to relax- THANKGOD.

Today: I got up at like 4 for some reason, so I decided to respond to Darius' text message, but I got really tired and went back to sleep. Then, I woke up at 6.45 and got readyy for the exam, ughh my hair was a mess! Left to go for the exam with Kellyanne, THE EXAM? stupid, stupid, stupid. Would you guess what the theme was? People's lives are enriched by the connections with nature. SERIOUSLY? It didn't make sense! The multiple choice was alright, the first essay; I actually think that was written pretty well, but the second one, that had to do with that theme? uggh, it was okay. Done exams, watching Love Blossoms 2 Episode 46 on MOBTV :)

CHINESE NEW YEAR DAY: I woke up at 8, to talk to Bryan. Then, I left to go for the Math Provincial @ 12.15 with JUSTIN, it was pretty easy! :) Then, stayed home & talked to a whole bunch of people on msn, while getting ready for Chinese New Year 09! =] After, Matt's family came over, then Uncle & Aunt came over. I kept going back & forth from my room talking to people & going out and entertaining guests. It was a fun night, overall.

Sunday: I HAD CHURCH & CHURCH. That was basically it.

Saturday: After studying, Mohaddasah and I ended up camwhoring. Then, stayed home, REVIEWING MATH, and chatting with people. :) Then, Uncle Melvyn & family came with their friends. Reunion dinner i guess?

anywayy, time to go napp :) ahhaha at 2..in the afternoon!

♥ ttyls.

keepin my head to the sky, keepin tears outta my eyes - Tuesday, January 27, 2009

i miss you so much,
i don't even think you know,
i would never hurt you,
could never hurt you,
you're amazing,
you're the reason I'm smiling
whenever I wake up.
I wish I could be with you right now,
-would give anything to be with you right now.
i miss you =(

happy chinese new yeaar ♥ -

happy chinese new year to everryonee ♥
i'm so excited, had a dinner on saturdayy!
& a dinner @church on sunday!
& a dinner tonight!
busy, busy, busy.
-provincial exam in an hour! AHH, save me.
anywayy life is amazing right now,
will blog after dinner tonight if possible!
& put up picctuures =]

♥ttyls, missing him so muchh =( it's unfaiir.

studying, studying & studying. - Sunday, January 25, 2009

you'll be better todaaay, so much better today - - Saturday, January 24, 2009

lalala, home home & home.
decided to redo my blog template.
NO LIFE RIGHT NOW? i know
No school, No exams today, No mood to study
yes, i have like no one in my exiits, SUCKS.
waiiting for my dear new debit card
& school counsellor called my mom.
HELP SOON?!
I'm happy, feeling better
about myself allreaddy!

♥ ttyls.

how do i deal? - Friday, January 23, 2009

It's not as bad as the people who are hospitalized, but what happens if that turns out to be as bad as that? THEN WHAT DO I TO? Why do I do this to myself? Why do I insist on hurting my own body? I don't understand. What does it do for me? RELIEVE MY STRESS? TAKE MY ANGER OUT ON MYSELF? What is the use of that? How can anyone get past this? What if it's stuck with me for the rest of my life? What happens if I can't stop? It's unhealthy, I know that. It scares me, because I know that I want to stop, and yet I know I don't either.

THAT SCARES ME.

i left myself behind, somewhere along the way- -

i know i'm breaking down, i know i've lost myself. -

armineh & joanna; debbie & tasha's homestay LOL

OUR AHMAZING CUPCAKES; JEALOUS? =]

you're a bitch. - Wednesday, January 21, 2009

stressed, VERY STRESSED. -

OHMYGOSH.

CHANEL FALL & WINTER 09 COLLECTION
& MOST OF THE MARC JACOBS
SPRING & SUMMER 09 COLLECTION
GORRGEOUS CLOTHES THAT
ARE LITERALLY, TO DIE FOR

anyway, studying all of yesterday, ughh mock provincials = stress, stress & more stress. I CAN'T DEAL. I ALMOST PASSED OUT/HAD A HEART ATTACK TODAY, and I'm NOT lying. My english mock provincials were done & I hung out with Alex for a bit! =] Went to Foods, and Nicole SCARE THE SHIT OUTTA ME, when she tole me the mock provincial for math was REALLY HARD. Then, hung out with Tasha during lunch, with Shilp for a bit too. Then, I went to math, already expecting THE WORST. I started, and it was easy, then time started running out. I was stuck on a question, my heart was racing, NO JOKE. I had to ask if I could leave and see my counsellor because I thought I was going to pass out. I RAN DOWN, she was busy, I RAN UP, stuck in my chair, my heartbeat kept going faster. I thought I was going to have a heart attack, I managed to finish it, and when I did, my teacher looked & asked, "ARE YOU OKAY?" I honestly, DIED. Then, we had planning, then I had to see the counsellor to tell her to make the referral to the clinic about it -[CONFIDENTIAL]. I went to open another bank account after, and went shopping, GOT NEW PUMAS! and my mom got me boots yesterday, FINALLY, BLACK UGGS =] I know uggs may be out, but I don't care. THEY'RE TOO COMFORTABLE. Anyway, finishing math mock provincials tmrw, I HOPE I DO WELL.

ttyls.

I'm SCARED. - Monday, January 19, 2009

i'm scared?
scared of rejection,
scared of failure,
scared of anything going wrong in my life.

I can't deal with not getting what I want, I can't, WHY? WHY DO I RESULT TO THE WORSE DECISIONS TO DEAL WITH THIS? I need to learn that life isn't going to be perfect, but I guess I can't accept that fact, I'm too used to having it my way, and having no one really checking up on me. Now, it's turned into a horrible problem & I don't get how to deal. I'm SCARED, that it's getting worse everyday, especially with me hiding it. I think that I'm using this as a way to escape, and getting everything to go my way, I'm afraid if I stop, I won't get what I want. To me, I CAN'T HAVE THAT. I need to understand, though I already do, it seems like I can't accept the fact. EVERYTHING WILL NOT BE PERFECT, EVERYTHING WILL NOT GO MY WAY, I NEED TO LEARN THAT, I REALLY DO. If not, this will get bad, and I do know that. Now, it's all going wrong, but, everyone else will let me have my way, but I can't change myself, I need to, it won't get better, unless I do.

we all wish for better dayys. ♥ - Sunday, January 18, 2009

I'M FEELING REALLY SICK,
but I'm better than I was on
THURSDAY & FRIDAY.

Friday? was NOT a good day at all, it did get better towards the end though. =) Well, not totally fine, but it did improve a slight bit. So, got to school & had English. Findley wasn't there, so I didn't have to present, but he decided to give us a test, that was NOT expected by anyone. It wasn't hard, but we all won't be able to do as well as we would've, IF WE HAD STUDIED. GOSH, I'm sorry, but at this point, I SERIOUSLY HATE FINDLEY. What kind of teacher does that to his students? HE TOLD US IT WOULDN'T BE ON FRIDAY, he just said, "be prepared as if it would be on Friday, but I won't make it on Friday." fuckin liar, hate him. Then, we had foods class, it was pretty alright, except that, THAT was when I started shaking. During Lunch, I walked past someone, and it just made it worse, I wasn't mad at the person, but I was seriously getting so irritable, it wasn't good. Then, met up with Carly, then we bumped into Tash & Kellyanne. We went to the cafeteria, and I really COULD NOT stop shaking, and I felt like fainting or falling or I DON'T EVEN KNOW. Went to walk with Tash, ended up CRYiNG, so many people saw too, ugghs. Then, we went back to the table...mehh it was stupid. Then, I had math, and I actually got so dizzy, didn't talk to dianne at all, cause she's just making the situation worse by saying a whole bunch of shit bout me, so..I THINK I'LL STAY MAD. ugghs. Then, we had planning...tired as hell. Then..WORK, it was alright, worked with mohaddasah & irene & jasper & john & other people =) it was actually pretty fun, WORKED TIL 9 though, I was EXHAUSTED. Got home, talked to my mom, cause the school counsellor called, cause my planning teacher suspected something about my eating...[CONFIDENTIAL] Then, watched Love Blossoms 2 til like 12.30? and fell on my bed and fell asleep.

TODAY? woke up, entire body aching, felt like fainting. Read New Moon =), only at like page 119 LMAO. Cleaned my room, well more like...CLOSET. My mom was like OMG, WAY TOO MUCH CLOTHES, hehehe. =] Went on a walk @ROCKYPOINT with my mom, HOME NOW. =] not eating...my tummy does now feel good at all!!! I barely ate, I don't get it. Probably going to start studying for provincials tonight, and read new moon! People coming over later, ugghs.

♥ ttyls

TRUST? none. - Friday, January 16, 2009

I'm so done.
DONE, DONE,
and fuckin just DONE.

I've realized now, you can trust NO ONE. FAMILY? now that's an exception. I'm done believing that when i tell people something that seriously CANNOT be let out, that they'll keep their mouths shut. I'm done trusting people when they say they'll always be there, helping me get through all the shit I'm going through. THAT'S JUST FUCKIN BULLSHIT. Who's there for me to check up on me when I've got a serious problem in my life? All anyone cares about is forcing me to fuckin eat. GET OVER IT, YOU MAKE ME SO MAD WHEN YOU FORCE ME TO EAT, IT'S NOT HELPING. You're making me worse. I don't need you to tell me that what I'm doing is wrong, I KNOW IT'S WRONG. Why am I telling you guys about this if I don't realize it; if I don't want help? ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS HOW MUCH IT'S HURTING YOU GUYS, has it ever occured to any of you, how much it's fuckin hurting me? MENTALLY & PHYSICALLY. YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND. Nobody's perfect, but we all have to strive for perfection, and all I want, is to stay skinny, never gain weight. Yes, how I'm doing this at this point of time, it's not right; you don't have to be a genius to figure that out. Whether I want to stop or not? That's also my decision. I WANT TO STOP, but at the same time, I don't want to. When people around me are forcing me to do something, it makes me not want to do what they're forcing me to do even more, it makes me even more upset, it makes me want to puke all over again; I've gotten worse today than I was before. To one person, you're not well, neither am I; You tell me to do something for you, but when I ask you to do something for me, DO YOU? NO, YOU TELL ME YOU CAN'T. THEN GUESS WHAT? I CAN'T EITHER, SO SUCK IT UP, ASSHOLE. Now you know how I felt, EVERY SINGLE FUCKIN TIME I TALKED TO YOU AND YOU TOLD ME HOW SAD YOU WERE. YOU'RE SICK, SO AM I, SO WHY CAN'T YOU DO THIS FOR ME? is it that fuckin hard, SERIOUSLY. You need help, and I do too. AT LEAST I REALIZE IT, you don't, you think you're fine. YOU THINK STAYING DEPRESSED FOR SO LONG IS FINE? SERIOUSLY? GET IT RIGHT. It's NOT, AND YOU NEED HELP. I'm not doing ANYTHING for you. I WON'T LET MYSELF. Until you realize you have a problem, I can't bring myself to fix mine. I just can't. What you do? IT UPSETS ME, IT CAUSES ME TO HAVE EVEN MORE OF A PROBLEM. Don't worry, you're not the only problem in my life, but you are one of the major ones; to see you like this? IT HURTS ME SO MUCH. I don't know how to handle the hurt, and you know what I result to. MY FAMILY? I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, but I have no control of my problem, or maybe that's just how I feel. I DO TRY, I really do, but I feel that ever since I asked for help, you guys make me such a big deal. I DON'T HAVE THAT BIG OF A PROBLEM, it's just a small one, it's not that bad. I don't need you guys constantly looking at what I eat; I don't need you telling me to remove my hands from my tummy and to put them on the table. It hurts me to know that I've caused you guys to worry, I can't deal with it. IT DRIVES ME TO THAT! It makes me mad to know that people are trying to tell me what to do, IT MAKES ME DO IT. I'm just so done, believing in ANYONE, trusting ANYONE.

HAPPY BiRTHDAY TO YOU =] - Thursday, January 15, 2009

kiss me through the phone ♥ - Wednesday, January 14, 2009

mmmmms, just finished my stupid english homework, uggh ROMEO & JULIET-performed the play today too. UGHH, I totally don't like having to perform it BUT it's suuch a cute show! =] anyways, my right eye like the right side of it is so effin red, I couldn't put my contacts on. I'm so scared that it's infected, you have NO iDEA. English: PERFORMED THE PLAY. Foods: WATCHED PEOPLE MAKE SPAGHETTI & SUSHI. Lunch: Tash, Armineh, Carly & Kellyanne. Math: CHAPTER 2 REVIEW, TEST: 34/35..meh. PLANNING: slept in class while watching "supersize me". AFTER SCHOOL: went to get hair done, went to doctors to schedule an appointment for my eye, did R&J homework, done & done ♥

90210 TIME?
i believe so
♥ ttyls

cross my heeart ♥ - Tuesday, January 13, 2009

TODAY? got up at like 6.30 to get ready for school & I wasn't even ready til 7.45! ATE SPAGHETTI FOR BREAKFAST (totally off my diet!-it slows down my metabolism, so i'll just exercise a lot =]) Went to school, didn't have to perform because Emily wasn't there, but we're performing tommorow, UUGGGHS. FOODS CLASS-watched people make cheese pizzas & some sweet potato stuff. LUNCH-didn't eat, though everyone around me did, studied for the math test instead. MATH-did the test, therefore I didn't have to talk to SOMEONE =]. PLANNING-watched supersize-me, EWWWWW, fat=mcdiccks. After school, walked to the mall with my cousin Allison, to meet up with my mommy, turns out i can't get my bangs done until tmrw. We shopped...for like 3 hours, I was gonna get black boots, but I thought it'd be hard to match. Finally, found a pretty jacket =] then had some purdy's ice cream. So, ANOTHER THING OFF MY WISHLIST! ♥-got into a fight with my dad cause he won't buy me a ticket back to Singapore until like 2 more years, which makes me mad. UNLESS, I save up I guess, UGGHS. Just finished watching THE CiTY.

TIME FOR GOSSiP GiRL
♥ ttyls.

donee, biitches - Monday, January 12, 2009

oh & all my problems are like fine now.
no more fights, everything's good.
except that one thing from math,
but whatever,
good life =]
♥ ttyls

maybe we're not meant to be- -

Thursday? We marked the Multiple Choice questions on the Mock Provincial & we all got like 5/29, turns out Findley gave us the wrong answer key. SURPRISED? not really- Foods, I think we made a bunch of bread crap, I didn't eat any (CONTROLLING MY HUNGER =]). Mandy ate it instead, and so I told her to wash the dishes, and...OHMYGOSH, she actually did. Then, Lunch...I can't remember, I ate a banana though =). uuuum, I think I got home, did a whole bunch of math homework, and then talked to people online & watched New Sneak Previews of Love Blossoms 2. THEEEN - sleeep =)

I think I'll go exercise now.

OMG, and tmrw we get out of school early,

mom & I are going shopping & getting my bangs cut and stuff.

I probably won't buy tons of clothes, probably just a new winter jacket?

I'm not too sure, we'll see, but YAY =]

♥ ttyls

0 twirling, 9:25 AM

sick & very faint & so tired, WHY? -

ohmygosh, I actually have time right now, MULTITASKING =)
I can't write too much bout what's been going on.
I will when I get home from church.
right now? I'm trying to control my hunger, DIETING =)
but i ate like 4 pieces of sushi before, I feel so guilty now.
ugh, well, I'm really dehydrated, and I mean, I'm not hungry,
I can totally control that, but...I think I'm going to faint.
I feel sick as hell, everyone's saying I look pale.
OHMYGOSH.
♥ ttyls

0 twirling, 6:15 AM

CAMWHORE? i've realized. - Friday, January 9, 2009

pictures taken when I was camwhoring =]

-not in the mood to actually blog

♥ ttyls

0 twirling, 1:49 PM

@SCHOOL? - Thursday, January 8, 2009

@ SCHOOL; upset & done english mock provincial =)
FOODS CLASS, the MATH, then PLANNING.
Ohmygosh, ughhh. & I’m not having a good day at all.

0 twirling, 1:53 AM

glamour, glitter & gold - nothing is stopping you ♥ - Wednesday, January 7, 2009

just finished writing my Romeo & Juliet essay about Starcrossed lovers, it was a whole bunch of crap-took me like 2 hours, HAHAHA =). Oh well, it's a first draft, doesn't matter =) I HOPE.

SCHOOL TODAY [shortened day, thank God], kept working on mock provincials in English. We made MAC&CHEESE in foods class, Mandy didn't clean anything up (AS USUAL). I TOLD HER TO CLEAN HER DUMB FUCKIN SAUCE PAN, she just stayed all quiet. UUUGHH. LUNCH; I was kind of out of it, just sat with friends reading magazines fron LONDON =). MATH-easy, easy, easy stuff as usual. PLANNING-we were suppose to research drugs. TASH, DEBBIE, ARMINEH & I ended up reading magazines, shopping online @ TOPSHOP, and eating food =). After, stayed back to talk to Tash & Armineh, then Armineh left, and Tash told me about a whole bunch of stuff...I felt horrible about it. GOT HOME, called Nick to talk about stuff, sorrrry? I don't even know what to think. Ate Special K cereal, then sat down & wrote my essay, and guess what? It's done, done & done.

Apparantly, someone's mad @ me for dumping him and then avoiding him because he upset me so much. APPARANTLY, he made it seem like he was so sad & made me look like a horrible person. I don't believe he would do that, but then again, he was upset? HE COULD'VE. I asked him, he said he was fine, and that he never said something (I won't mention it, cause it's so dumb) about me. I want to believe it, but I'm confused.

I'm sorry if I hurt you,

but it was like one week,

get over it, please?

0 twirling, 10:03 AM

GOSSIPGIRL-missed? fuck my life. - Tuesday, January 6, 2009

ohmygosh, my daddy forgot that he had to turn

the recorder off before it records

for like a timed recording...HE DIDN'T RECORD GOSSiP GiRL.

i am going to CRY, anyone know links that can get to

the latest episode of it?

DADDY, WHY?

90210 tmrw, i better not miss that.

0 twirling, 2:43 PM

THAT'S WHEN I LOVE YOU. -

Heres my promise made tonight

You can count on me for life

Thats when i love you

When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn, The more I love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you,

When I love you no matter what.

0 twirling, 10:52 AM

FiRST DAY BACK AT SCHOOL AFTER WINTER BREAK. -

FiRST DAY BACK @ SCHOOL

ohhkays, so today? no homework.

plans after school? none, had to come straight home. =(

right now? bored as hell.

which means? time to blog =]

[sunday] consisted of hmm, church church..and oh right, that was pretty much it. So, we were late for morning church (as usual, no surprise there). The message was pretty good, I must say, even though I was falling asleep, cause I was SO tired (don't even know why). We went out to lunch @ some new chinese restaurant in Henderson-hmm, the food was pretty good, but there weren't a ton of vegetables, so I had to get my mom to order a whole plate for me (THANKS MOM! =]). Then, we got home to get ready for chinese church. YES, 2 churches a day, I KNOW IT'S CRAZY.

We got there, and I was bored as hell (AS USUAL), then we were going to watch my Daddy & Uncle perform some thing for church. GUESS WHAT? I SAW TONY SITTING THERE, not going for youth with me, dumbass =] hehe, juustkidding. ANYWAYS, hm the performance was actually pretty good, and I had to text Tony, and he came back to youth with me, thhhanks! (totally took me out of my boredom!) I ended up playing with his cellphone and his spinny ring, OHMYGOSH, I swear that ring is the coolest thing ever! It entertained me for the rest of the class, thanks tony =] THEN, I wanted to take the ring home for like a whole week, but he wouldn't let me! LOOSEEER.

Then, we had to go get this eyewash thing from shopper's drug mart cause my eyes were KILLING ME (stupid mascara bits). Then, I got home, and talked to Spencer & Janet & Tasha =). BUT, someone decided to piss me off (I won't say who, but you know who you are, asshole). He got mad at me over an ASSUMPTION, and didn't respond to my text til...

[monday] i woke up, already NOT IN A GOOD MOOD, cause it was the first day of school. Got a text from NAZ & my amazing cousin in Singapore, CALEB! Then, after like an hour, I was finally ready for school. I got a text message from the asshole =) telling me he was mad at me because he thought I was deliberately going off msn whenever he came on...SERIOUSLY?

YOU OF ALL PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW,

I FUCKIN HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS.

who the fuck are you to think that you know what i was doing,

YOU FUCKIN DON'T. you ASSUMED that I was logging off msn

whenever you came on, SERIOUSLY? YOU COULD'VE ASKED ME.

DON'T FUCKIN JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS, got that?

you're a JERK.

Yes, I found that message there NECESSARY so that he would know how I felt about this. I DON'T CARE IF YOU APOLOGIZED, I seriously don't. You've pushed me to actually wanting to avoid you now, it's not an assumption anymore, idiot.

Well anyway, my first block teacher? he was like 10 minutes late, and only half the class was there, cause everyone else was snowed in. WE WERE WISHING FOR A SNOW DAY, but apparantly no, THERE HAD TO BE SCHOOL. So anyway, we were doing mock provincials, and I don't appreciate getting text messages from STUPID JERKS apologizing after they realized that they were horribly wrong while I'm trying to focus on a mock provincial, thanks. I HOPE HE'S GETTING THE POINT: I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE SORRY, YOU MADE ME SO MAD, AND RUINED MY ENTIRE MORNING. Then, Armineh and I had to walk on the ice/snow to go across the street & get SUSHI for lunch =). Then, I had math, and the planning, where we learned about Substance Abuse, it was quite interesting! =) MY AMAZING COUSIN CALEB SEOW TEXTED ME AGAIN in planning =].

Then, it was time to go home (Since I'm not allowed out), so I got to the car and found out that tonight? We're going to dinner with Matt's family =] but it means that I'll be missing THE FIRST EPISODE OF THE NEW SEASON OF GOSSiP GiRL. It's okay though, my Daddy set a timer on the DVD recorder and it shall record it for me =]

When I got home, I emailed Spencer because I was so pissed, and he's always there for me so =]. Then..I got a missed call, ohh guess who? JERK. Then, he called again, and guess what? I HUNG UP =] yay. I seriously wanna like scream at someone right now, FUCK.

&addicted to THAT'S WHEN I LOVE YOU BY ASLYN

thankyou spencer, it's an amazing song =]

0 twirling, 8:04 AM

you can hit the lights ♥ - Monday, January 5, 2009

My sister took these pictures of the fireplace with the new camera

i thought they looked prettty amazing =]

-off to church, ttyls ♥

0 twirling, 6:19 AM

i'm losing grip, what's happening ♥ - Sunday, January 4, 2009

"Fashion fades, only style remains the same."
- coco chanel

SNOWED IN- that's all that's happening right now, OHMYGOSH. snow? TOTAL DAY RUINER. waiit-is ruiner a word? HMM, ohh well. BORED AS HELL. So, i guess i shall blog.

FRIDAY? WOKE UP AT 10, or maybe 11. I wasn't suppose to go out til 4, but my mom decided that she wanted to go see my Grandaunt who is visiting from Singapore. I RUSHED TO GET READY, only to find out that she was @ the mall with my cousin, and that now, we had no plans. Then, my mom was like "WE NEED THINGS FROM IKEA, LET'S GO" & that was at like 1.30? we got to IKEA @ 2, and looked for an extra closet for me (WHICH I DESPERATELY NEED! way too many clothes even AFTER cleaning out my dearest closet!) We were stuck there for like 45 minutes, and spent the last 15 minutes WAITING IN LINE for Cinammon buns & Hot dogs! The Cinnamon buns? were AMAZING, didn't eat the hot dogs, I felt horrible after though...so much for my healthy eating!

Then, my parents dropped me off and THEN they went to pick my Grandaunt & Cousin @ the mall. When I was done, it was like 8? then I called my parents to come pick me up, and my mom was like..."can you wait? we're eating.." I was like.."WHAT? NO I WANT TO EAT!" and she was like.."oh oh oh, okay okay, your dad's going to pick you up, but you can't rent movies anymore" and i was UPSET =[ but yeeeahs. Then, my dad came to pick me up & drove me to the restaurant, on the way there...I don't even know waht we were talking about but he was like, "You're Spoiled!" I was like.."ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I'M SO NOT SPOILED!" and he was like, "It takes someone who is spoiled to say that they aren't spoiled". I WAS SPEEEECHLESS, like ohmygoshh. ANYWAYS, I got there and Cherisse, Cheryln, Beverley, Samantha, my Sister & I were all talking about DiSNEY MOViES, RANDOM? I know, but it was pretty funny, i totally forgot everything about them! We left at about 9.30, and I came home and played with the lovely new camera. Then @ 12.30, my mom told me she got episode 31 of LOVE BLOSSOMS 2, so we watched it, i was happy. =]

SATURDAY? I promised my mom that I would help her cook food for the guests & do her grocery shopping with her. I couldn't sleep, so I woke up at like 6.45, and guess what ruined my day? I looked out the window, it was...SNOWING. GOSH, I seriously HATE it in Canada. I could probably write like a billion essays about how badly I want to move back. My mom came home and we agreed to shovel snow, but, my mom got mad at me cause of my room, and we got into a fight. BUT she apologized, so I shovelled the snow..THINKING that she was going to help, but she just stayed and cooked. It was so stupid cause i shovelled the driveway, and when i looked down, the snow was back, i was like WHAT THE FUCK? it was RETARDED, I was SO MAD. Then, Justin & Samantha came and helped me, and Justin & I ended up getting into a Snowball fight, and he threw a HUGEASS ONE, and it hit my boob, trust me, IT HURT LIKE HELL.

Then, I got REALLY COLD, and decided to go into the house, and MY SISTER WAS FINALLY AWAKE, stupid lazyass pig sister. =] Then, I spent 4 hours like making a collage cause that's just how effin bored I was, @ 6 - I was donnne! I was so proud of myself =] I found out my Aunt Sarah & Uncle Lim were coming for dinner (They are here now).

Seriously, This snow is depressing, I want to go back to Singapore SO BADLY, it's unexplainable, I don't think my parents realize it. I'm so sick of Canada, I was excited when I first came, but after my trip to Singapore in the summer, I've realized: I LOVE SINGAPORE, ALWAYS HAVE, ALWAYS WILL. I wanted to move back, and my mom said it was up to me, and I went for tutoring, but guess what? I DIDN'T GET TO STAY, thanks alot. =[

WATCHAMACALLIT? ♥

goood soong, loove it?

will upload more pics later, time to watch TITANIC on TV

ttyls.

0 twirling, 10:04 AM

WAKE UP. - Saturday, January 3, 2009

hehehe, 7.32 in the morning, just woke up, it's snowing. NOT EXCITED. & playing with the new camera =] only 6 hours of sleep, uggh tiredness.

0 twirling, 11:32 PM

I've had way too much time to think... - Friday, January 2, 2009

When I'm with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same?

I've had way too much time to think while listening to such a cute song, it may be old, but it's cute. ADDiCTED by: STEViE HOANG? It's making me think about someone I still like, though I don't even understand why. I liked you, 3 years ago, for way too long, then I shut you out of my life. I still let you back in, I don't know why. I convinced myself that I wouldn't fall for you all over again, that you'd be just like a brother to me, so WHY DO I STILL LIKE YOU. I hurt someone because of you. WHY. seriously, I just don't understand it. I may like someone else, not just you, but I don't understand why you're back in my life all over again. I want to shut you out, but I can't. You're always there for me, and I'm always there for you, but for some reason I think you'll just hurt me. I don't want to get hurt by you anymore, you are amazing, and I guess FRIENDS is all that we'll be.

So much for a new beginning,
I'm back to how I had been before.

0 twirling, 12:11 PM

BORED =[ UGHH. -

Tip Top, Drip Drop,

Bottle's Pop,

Lips Lock, Hips Rock, Don't STOP-

Bottle pop by: PCD, love that song ♥ hehe, i actually love the new songs by PCD, they are so addictive, i swear. So, I'm stuck home, just finished watching an old episode of GOSSiP GiRL, can't wait for the new episode starting next monday? then I'll was THE CiTY and 90210 is the day after that! AH, I'm SO excited, my TV schedule is back on, LOVELOVELOVE those shows! but, ohmygosh. PROVINCIALS SOON? ohmyohmyohmy, I will like CRY. I better do amazing on them, ESPECIALLY IN ENGLISH, if I fail, I'm so gonna blame Findley, ugh ugh ugh! My sister isn't even helping, she's just making me freak out, like ohmygosh, she's all like, "WHAT? YOU HAVEN'T PREPARED YET? WHEN ARE YOUR EXAMS? OHMYGOSH, GO RESEARCH IT ONLINE!" like WTF. It's not helping! So anyways, Matt's family was here awhile ago, but I was just infront of the TV like basically? falling asleep! Apparantly Matt's dad gave us red packets though, YAY! THEN THEN THEN, my dear Daddy came home, but guess what? HE DIDN'T GET THE CAMERA, he said tommorow, UGGH, whatever though, I STILL LOVE MY DADDY, though he didn't give me my allowance GRR. Then, i went into my room to change since people are coming (THEY'RE HERE NOW). I decided to take a few pictures with my webcam.Then my mom came home & totally commented on my outfit and was like, "Why are you dressed so fancily? go change". So, i had to change into my TNA hoodie instead..hm. OHOHOH, i finished watching all the episodes of LOVE BLOSSOMS 2 off MOBTV, ugh I'M SO UPSET! I think I'll watch THE CiTY off the MTV WEBSITE, oh & BROMANCE TOO, i wonder how that show is...ugh, ttyls. I'll probably be blogging again later, SOO BORED!

ALL EYES ON ME

iN THE CENTER OF THE RING

JUST LiKE A CiRCUS ♥

hehehe, i heart CiRCUS by BRiTNEY SPEARS TOO.

it's not like REALLY new, but it's still good.

NEWYEAR-2009 ♥ -

Yesterday, I got ready to go out and was experimenting with my outfits =] (only got shots of 2 outfits!). THEN, I was out from like 4-8, I ALMOST FAINTED! (cause i didn't eat) & I still had to walk in the ICE (THE SNOW TURNED TO ICE-ughh i can`t stand the snow right now) & FLATS cause I decided to be the STUPIDEST person alive & wore flats when I KNEW that I would have had to walk to 7-11. UGHH. Anyway, my uncle picked me up to go home @ 8. I thought we were all going to my Aunt's house, but NOO, everyone was @ our house instead! They were ALL people from church, and they were ALL adults...CHINESE SPEAKING ONES. Then, they were all talking about how it's SOO important for kids these days to know mandarin? THEN, they made me say apple in mandarin, GR. I got bored, went to my room, listened to some music, and then talked to the few people that were on, as everyone was out..hmm AT PARTIES. unlike me, stuck at home!


Then, my mom saw that was pretty much bored as hell, and told me to go down and play UNO with my cousins. I wasn't exactly EXCITED about it, but I was like, hmm..it's better than being bored! SO, we watched "What a girl wants" which I've watched like..A BILLION TIMES on TV & played UNO. Justin won the first round...then...I won almost every other round! It was actually funny because Samantha totally got mad that she was losing and hadn't won one game! We got bored of UNO and decided to play BIG 2...with 3 people...BORING? meh, it was OKAY. We could've had 4 people but...NO, my sister decided to be a fatass and just sit there, READING & EATING HER FRUIT LOOPS, gosh fatass! (JUST KIDDING, i love you big sister =]) ANYWAY, I won like one round, and Justin won the rest, it was pretty fun cause i got to throw cards at him!



THEN, the people left at 11.30...thought they were staying til 12 but I guess not! My mom decided to make us all go up @ 12 to thank God for everything we were thankful for in 2008, but I had to run to the washroom @ 12 and hide there til Nick called to wish me a happy new year =] . THEN, we sat there and talked..and talked..and talked. AFTER, my mom was all like, "KAYY NOW WE GOTTA PRAY". UGGH, then we all went to the kitchen, for a game of UNO, with like everyone in the house..which was like 8 people? EXCEPT, my dear fatass of a sister..who just kept reading, ew NERD. MY DAD TOTALLY LOST LIKE A BILLION TIMES =] and my aunt won the game.

THEN, I came on the computer and talked to Adrian, Spencer, Shilp, Bryan, Kellyanne & Amaris til like 2.30 am, then I just like FELL ON MY BED, i was so tired. I was suppose to help my daddy shovel snow today at like 10, so I woke up @ 9.45 to find that it already had been shovelled cause my daddy went to work, GRRR =( ! but Today, we were suppose to go to like Mt. Cypress to SKI & SNOWBOARD, but guess what? it snowed! RIGHT AT 12 AM and my dad was like, "nevermind, I'll go to work then!" So, yeah =( it was so ruined, but my daddy said we're gonna go soon =] THANKYOU DADDY! NEW CAMERA TODAY YAYY DADDDDY! I love my daddy when he gives me what i want =] ... well i guess, even when he doesn't!




OUTFIT EXPERIMENT #1 =]
sorrrtta appropriate for winter


OUTFIT EXPERIMENT #2
cute summer outfit?
SO NOT FOR WINTER


COUSINS & AUNT & UNCLE: totally weren't ready for the picture


HAHAHA family playing UNO


SNOWING ON NEW YEARS, exactly @ 12




FAMILY MEETING.


Me playing the piano..after like uhh how many months?

NEW YEARS EVE - Thursday, January 1, 2009

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