she thought she had it all figured out - Thursday, February 26, 2009

Well, today was a pretty good day! (= ANTi-BULLYiNG DAY? lmao, well i didn't wear pink, OHHH WELLS, doesn't matter! So in Social Studies, we talked about bullying & OMG, it was so sad. Yeah, I haven't exactly been bullied in my life, but I'd HATE to see someone go through that. I'd hate to see it when they get to the point where they commit suicide, THAT MAKES ME CRY. We also heard about a 10 year old kid who got beat up & hung on some hook, and died 4 days later. HE'S 10 YEARS OLD, WOW HAVE A HEART YOU IDIOTS. Anyway, off that topic (: Mandarin Class was boring...OBVIOUSLY & I wrote all my thoughts about someone down! I'm going to be typing it out after this. Lunch; I went to 7-11 with Becca, Carly, and Kellyanne. As we were going back to school, i got a text from Jenny to go to starbucks, so i did. I didn't see her there because i didn't go in, so I was going to go back & as I was crossing the street, i got another text and i turned aound in the middle of the street (YES I LOOKED LIKE AN IDIOT!). Then, hung out with Jenny & Avery! (: We walked back to school after, and it was HAILING, like WTF. Got to science, and it was SNOWING, SO HEAVILY TOO. I WAS GOING TO SCREAM! Then, I went to Gym. After gym, i had like 5 effin text messages and i had to rush to catch a ride with my uncle, and on the way i bumped into Shilp. I was stuck, texting, briskwalking, and talking to Shilp all at the same time & i ended up running to my ride. I got home, and read eclipse...YES I'M A NERD! :( took a nap (: THEN WOKE UP. Did my science homework, which took um, 5 minutes? mmmhmmmms (:

....TO SOMEONE (: -this is what i wrote in mandarin class.

You have managed to absolutely confuse me; I am at a lost, thinking about what I want. One day I want you, and the next, I'm done with you. It seems like that's how you are too-one day you're the sweetest, and the next, you ignore me completely. It seems like whenever I want you? You don't want me. Whenever you want me? I don't want you. Can we please end this game of confusion, and forget all promises that have been made? I'm so confused, so upset, and just messed up at this point. I hope you know that I am in no mood to keep going with this anymore. All my happiness has been drowned out from me, and I'm tired of this. If I do keep thinking about you, if I do keep caring about you? I will be left torn apart, broken hearted, in severe depression. I'll admit that I really did likeyou...AT ONE POINT. I am sick of the many ups and downs that I've had to go through and I wouldn't be surprised if you only liked be because I liked you. So, guess what? I'm DONE with it. I can't keep going on like this, WE can't keep going on with this. Maybe you can, because you probably don't even care. I do not know what actually made you think that you had the right to hurt me this way.

WE NEED TO FIGURE US OUT; CAUSE WE CAN'T KEEP GOING. - Wednesday, February 25, 2009

OMG. -

i'm UNSTOPPABLE - Tuesday, February 24, 2009

HAPPY BiRTHDAY MARiA O. (:
i hope it'll be a great 16th!

MY WHOLE BODY WAS ACHiNG TODAY, like actually. I got to school & basically fell asleep in socials, it was KILLLING me. Then, Carly looked at me and was like, "OMG! NARISSA HAS 2 EYEBROWS, SHE GOT THEM DONE!" I started laughing like crazy, and I couldn't see, so I texted Nick to ask him to look. He couldn't & said he wouldn't want to either! (: Then I texted a whole bunch of people, and i texted shilp bout her unibrow becoming 2 (: and hmm, intresting stuff. While i was leaving class, Narissa hit me right where i was having Chest pains with her effin huge TNA bag, and i was like...OWWWWW & she just walked away, BITCH. I was about to bitch at her, but she would OBVIOUSLY go to the counsellor, so i'll just avoid that situation. Mandarin class? Tony and I like FAILED the conversation :( & Lunch, I hung out with JENNY (: @ Starbucks, and Avery came to see her! ;) In science, umm boring, cause Crystal wasn't there. Gym, I CAME IN SECOND AMONG THE GIRLS AND ALMOST BEAT HILARY, i had so much energy!!! Walked home in the rain & was like non stop texting, i got my textbooks and cell all wet, BAHAHAHAHA. Came home, took a nap (: ate some food, started doing homework. i got 33/39 on my socials test...85%, 1% off an A...IM MAD, CAUSE IF I STUDIED IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO MUCH BETTER. ugggghs.

& TO SOMEONE THAT I SHALL NOT MENTION: GROW UP, seriously? YOU GOT DUMPED, OKAYYY? ACCEPT THE FACT YOU DUMBASS. Don't go around making stupid excuses to try and make it look as if you're better than your ex, cause you're not. Don't tell people you dumped her, cause everyone knows you didn't! ACCEPT THE FACT, STOP TRYING TO MAKE YOURSELF LOOK GOOD, cause you don't (: & get over it ;) you're just gonna look like an ever bigger dumbass soon, LOVES.
& No, this has nothing to do with me! (:

ttyls, joannaseow-

my whole life i place in your hands, GOD OF MERCY humbled i bow down; - Monday, February 23, 2009

i adored the message this morning @COQUITLAM ALLIANCE, about a reliant heart! It was about King David & how he relied on God through some bits of Tragedy that had happened when he was running from Saul. I LOVE THE MESSAGE, and the pastor? Pastor Brad Strelau was incredible! I got a really good quote from his message (: HERE IT IS!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY(: - Sunday, February 22, 2009

these are head strong, CRAZY DAYS. -

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE YEONG EUN (: -

cause maybe you're gonna be the one who saves mee - Friday, February 20, 2009

HAIRCUT; kill me noww. So, i got my bangs switched to the other side, and my hair is officially layered WAY more. AHHHHHHHHH, i'm so not used to it! :( People are telling my it's pretty but ah ah ah, i don't agree. I should really be studying for social studies, but umm, i can't. I will scream if i fail, but i shouldn't fail. I HOPE THE TEST ISN'T TOO HARD. Socials...was stupid, we watched a stupid video, i was texting the whole time. Mandarin, OMGOMGOMG i got detention for not pushing in my chair, like WTF? I DON'T GET DETENTION, OKAY OKAY OKAY? & Ivan and I had to read the passage, and we couldn't stop laughing, it took us practially half an hour to finish reading it! Science...I FINISHED THE HOMEWORK WHILE THE TEACHER WENT ON AND ON! GYM, i like volleyball (: except that i'm not too good @ VOLLEYING. THEN, the dreadful haircut! Then, HOME (: THEN, STRESSING OVER THE HAIR. Studied for like 5 minutes, reading notes, i really hope i do well? OH PLEASE.

STUNTIN IS A HABIT, GET LIKE ME ;) - Thursday, February 19, 2009

stuuntin is a haabit, GET LiKE ME (: hehe, i know it's an old song, but it's pretty damn ADDICTIVE (: TOOOODAY, so guess what? I'M NOT TIRED YET! AMAZED? i know I AM! been awake for 15 hours...i'm SOO gonna crasshh tonighht. YES, so since 2 am today? WOKE UP, did all my unfinished homework! (: I EVEN DID THE SCIENCE BONUS HOMEWORK, ohh damn i'm smartt! ;) DID SOCIALS WORKSHEET, i had to research that shit! THE TEACHER GAVE US THE WRONG PAGES. I spent 2 hours on my hair & 10 minutes on my makeup. HAHAHA, it's usually the total opposite, but i curled my hair..THEREFORE. Talked to a whole bunch of people from Singapore on MSN (: i miss talking to them! SCHOOL; socials, was a bore, SHILP GOT HIS IPHONE (: and yes my number better be in there! ;) Mandarin, I SAT WITH TONY CHEN, who was a know it all :( made me feel like a dumbass! Lunch, shivering like crazy, it wasn't good. SCIENCE, sat with Crystal (: we were bored as hell & played games on our cellphones & Mp3s! (: GYM=FAILURE? i almost FAINTED, then talked to Michelle, cause we were both bored as hell & i hope her foot gets better! (: WENT HOME, took a bunch of pics of my curled hair since my camera was charged!

WAKEUPP (: - Wednesday, February 18, 2009

YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE; that can undo what i've become -

what doesn't kill you will make you stronger. - Tuesday, February 17, 2009

no matter how far you fall down, you gotta be ready to sttaand up. - Monday, February 16, 2009

my life is over the eddge - Sunday, February 15, 2009

i haven't talked to a ton of people that i seriously miss like hell. i shall text them ASAP, -once i have the time, HOPEFULLY. ttyls lovess.

-SECRET VALENTiNE? -

once you've had a taste of perfectionn ;) - Friday, February 13, 2009

HOW SKiNNY iS TOO SKiNNY? - Thursday, February 12, 2009

Our bodies were all made differently; some to be fat, average, skinny, tall, etc. But, in today's society? We have a mindset, that you MUST be skinny & that mindset has pretty much taken over most of us. Think about it though, who really determines what skinny is? Who determines what fat is? WE DO. Yes, most things around us are saying that you need to be skinny to be pretty, and most of that may come from the fashion industry. Thing is, it's really how we look at things. We can choose to listen to what others say, we can choose to look at the fashion industry and think that we have to be incredibly skinny to look good. OR we could always view things in our perspective, and know that it's not true. It's about us, and our decisions - our perspectives.

I guess this topic pretty much came up in my mind because all anyone's been saying to me is that I am too skinny. To be honest, I do NOT believe that I am even CLOSE to being TOO SKINNY. Yes, I am skinny, and yes, I am underweight. I DO NOT BELIEVE I HAVE REACHED THE POINT WHERE I AM TOO SKINNY. I have seen people whom I believe are too skinny, and I'm nothing like that. I really would like to know where they're coming from, when they come up to me, telling me that I'm too skinny. To me, I think my weight is fine. Yes, I'm not the healthiest person for various reasons, but I truly do not believe that I am too skinny. When I am, I will realize it - I will change, but right now? I think that I'm fine, and maybe I do want to lose weight, but that's a whole other topic.

-THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A GREATER LOVE -

ughh, im TIRED, SO TIRED :(

Monday; SCHOOL which has actually been pretty good lately (: started the gymnastics routine with Nina (: Went to the mall with Tasha & Armineh after. I got a new shirt from buffalo, and a sweater type thing to go with one of my dresses (: & I HAVE BEEN BANNED FROM SPENDING MONEY, it's upsetting. It's all good though, I'm very contented right now! Got home & had to finish homework ASAP as relatives were going to come over. WE HAD CHICKEN RICE, it was great (: Then, watched THE CiTY (:

Tuesday; SCHOOL, Nick told me some pretty intresting stuff, couldn't believe it AT ALL! :( Mandarin Class, hmm, boring as usual. SCIENCE KILLED ME (I knew everything alrdy, like review? WAY TOO MUCH) NINA & I FINISHED OUT ROUTINE (: practiced til our heads went DIZZY! Walked home, ate food then..MANDARIN TUITION. ugghs, I was getting so confused, but it was good. Got home, had a SHIT LOAD of homework, stupid socials teacher. People were over, and I had to sit there and like focus on homework, and I even missed 90210. Didn't finish homework til 10, went to shower, went to bed at like 12.

TODAYY; Socials was alright, besides what Young said to me, like seriously buddy? STFU. Mandarin was ummmm...okay. Science ... i fell asleep (: GYM, i ACED my fitness test! (: ..WALDEN COULD DO PUSH UPS WITH ME ON HIS BACK! CRAZZZY. After School, went to the mall with Tasha, Chris & Armineh - left in a matter of like half an hour. HOME NOW, eating fruit loops, gotta start on hw soon :( uggghs, my head hurts, it bumped into Hilary's SO HARD.

WELCOME TO THE WORLD- - Monday, February 9, 2009

& i had to go to church SUUPER EARLY, so i ended up taking pics (:

mmmmkaaays, morning church was meeehhh, no good sermon, there wasn't even a sermon. They just talked about people overseas & how poor they were & all that, sooo sad! :( huurts me to see people going through stuff like that! Then, went for lunch @WESTWOODCAFE. (: My mom...decided to RUSH us to chinese church & we were there REALLY EARLY, made me so mad. Then - Justin, BIG SISTER & I had a discussion about like the RANDOMEST things. CAME HOME; for dinner, while the parents went out (: time for mandarin homework, grrrs. OH OH OH, may be going shopping tmrw (: YAY ME (:

♥ ttyls

WHAT THE HELLLLL. - Sunday, February 8, 2009

I DO NOT LIKE LOSING CLOTHES
AND I DO NOT LIKE THE FACT THAT I NOTICE
SOME OF MY SHIRTS HAVE GONE LIKE MISSING
AT FREAKIN 12.30 IN THE MORNING.
WHAT THE HELL.
IM GOING SHOPPING LIKE CRAZY
IF I CAN'T FIND MY CLOTHES UGGGGHS.

in THE CiTY OF DREAMS; you get caught up in the schemes- -

whatever happened to one night of fun? - Saturday, February 7, 2009

ohh, i've been driving on this road too long - just tryna find my way baack home. - Friday, February 6, 2009

So, I’ve realized that I haven’t exactly been blogging about my days & instead?
A LOT ABOUT MY THOUGHTS on … well, EVERYTHING.
I’ll start blogging about my days & all that soon.
For now? Ughh, I’ve GOT to vent out all my anger (:

I was really sick yesterday & I was bored at home, so – I read blogs (:
I stumbled upon this blog and seriously? It made me mad, to realize how dumb people can be.
IF I EVER MET THAT PERSON IN REAL LIFE; I’d want to knock A LOT of sense into them!

I swear, every blog entry was about some kind of guy, who was SO crazy about her.
Every entry consisted about some party she went to, and how high & drunk she got.
“OHMAGAAWWWSH, so this guy, is like in love with me & he got into a fight with that guy, cause he’s in love with me toooo. & like at the partttyy, I got so high from marijuana & we spent $10 on marijuana & like $50 on booze. Then, apparently that guy who liked me was ALL OVER MEEEE. Then, they fought, and like OHMAAGAWWSHH he’s so protective over me, but I swear he only likes my cause of my looks, and OMGG we’re SUUCHH whores”.

What are you doing with your life? SERIOUSLY, I don’t even know this person, but, WOOOOOW. You’re not cool because you spend $10 on weed & $50 on booze, get the hell over yourself. I’m sorry if I sound like a bitch right now, but I’m amazed at how immature some people in this world are, and I do apologize if anyone finds THIS blog entry immature, but it’s understandable. It just frustrates me, to know that people younger than me act like that. What are you going to end up as when you grow up? SERIOUSLY, start thinking. No, weed & booze & boys & being a whore; those things are NOT going to help you in life.

I don’t understand why people think that drinking & doing drugs & talking about how crazy guys are about them is just basically all that their life is about. You could say that I’m just jealous and wished that I drank every day, skipped school everyday just to do drugs & took pictures of my ass, but, NO THANKS; I’m fine. I just don’t understand why people waste their lives doing things as immature as that. HAVE YOU NOT LEARNED ABOUT THE HARM THAT COMES FROM ALL THAT YOU DO? NO, IT SERIOUSLY DOESN’T MAKE YOU COOL IN ANY WAY. It makes people look down on you, it makes guys go out with you because they think you’re an easy slut, have some respect for yourself, PLEASE! I seriously doubt that it’s that hard. Putting pictures on your blog saying, “OMG, WE’RE SUCH SKANKS”, writing blogs about how drunk & wasted you were, writing about how some guy was all over you & called you a slut? BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY IT’S A COMPLIMENT WHEN YOU’RE CALLED A SLUT? No, it’s not. I just wish people would understand that you’re not cool & no one has respect for you if you do things like that. People talk about you, not because you’re “famous”, but because they’re DISGUSTED by your actions. Try getting talked about for something other than being a drunk slut that loves weed & booze, something more respectable, and maybe you’ll feel better about yourself. I can’t imagine anyone who can actually love themselves because people call them a slut, because guys are all over them 24/7 because of their “looks” (OKAY, that’s an exception, though I really didn’t think that girl was pretty, but I guess I shouldn’t be talking, but still), and if you love yourself because you get drunk & stoned every day? There’s something seriously wrong with you.

I’m sorry if this blog may have offended anyone, but when I look around me, I’m sick of seeing people wasting their lives doing things like these. When you think about it, THOSE DRUGGIES ON THE STREETS? THE ONES THAT YOU GUYS LOOK AT & THINK ARE SO PATHETIC? That’ll be you one day, if you don’t watch it. They were rich kids, who led amazing lives, but they made one stupid mistake, and that’s where they ended up. If anyone thinks I'm some heartless person that thinks that those people on the streets deserve what they got? No, I'm not like that, I feel sorry for those people, I wish they'd pick themselves up, and get help. I love reading about recovery stories, but to know that people WANT to do these things to themselves sometimes? It makes me so upset and frustrated, WHAT MAKES YOU WANT TO DO THIS? So, to anyone reading this? If you are like that, I’m sorry I offended you, but think about what you’re doing to yourself. Are you trying to hurt yourself? Please, just grow up, gain some maturity. I may not be that mature, but if even I can see that? That does say something about you.

HONESTY; is the hardest thing. -

ew sicck- - Thursday, February 5, 2009

easy come, easy go- - Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Every single day, we're faced with the difficulty of having to make at least one decision. How often do we make the wrong decision? How often do we screw everything up by going wrong..ONCE? WE'RE ALL HUMAN, we were meant to make mistakes & learn from them. So, why is it that half the time, people DON'T learn from them? PEOPLE MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES REPEATEDLY, and they just never learn. They don't realize that what they've done is wrong, as screwed up as things are, they find a way to get out of it. Believe me, I am like that most of the time. I do what I want & I get in trouble for it, but somehow, I find a way out of it. I'll shout, I'll scream, I'll bitch out at you, I'll spend so much time proving my point, til I get you to say YOU'RE wrong. People I fight with usually are never wrong, they probably just don't want to fight with me anymore, because there's not point in it, I DON'T LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES. I may say sorry every once in awhile, and I go right back & do it. I've never realized it til now, I act EXACTLY like what I HATE seeing in others.

It's time for me to start over.
It's time for me to discipline myself;
Time for me to understand when I'm wrong & admit to it.
Time to learn from it, and time to try to change my ways.

It’s time for me to grow up & stop acting like a spoiled little brat.
Time for me to learn from others; to change myself,
time for me to start respecting others so that they'll gain respect for me.
Let's see how well i can discipline myself, to prove to myself,
that what my parents & sister say about me isn't true
-that I can change, I'm not a brat.
I'M CAPABLE OF CHANGE & I'LL PROVE IT.

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gossip, gossip, gossip? -xoxo, bitcch - Tuesday, February 3, 2009

gossipgossipgossip-XOXO? ♥

Just finished watching Gossip Girl & I must say, as much as that show is just full of scandals, gossip & lies? At times, they are showing EXACTLY what our society is like these days & it does have very good quotes.

Gossip is all around us & we do choose to believe it, before we find out the facts. We need to learn that we shouldn't always trust what we hear - half the time, their full of lies. Gossip is something that we can't stop. Gossip is a "talk or rumor, esp. about the personal or private affairs of others" -[www.dictionary.com] There's the definition, it's nothing more than talk or rumor. Why do people around us bother with making up things like these? Do you have too much time on your hands? DO YOU ACTUALLY HAVE A CONSCIENCE? Do you realize who actually is being affected by these lies that you decide to make up? Certain people do it to make themselves feel better; but what are you gaining from hurting someone else? It's time for you to understand, you don't gain ANYTHING from bringing someone else down & when they do realize what you did, things just get blown up - way out of proportion. Gossip ruins friendships, relationships, bascially? EVERYTHING, until people get their facts straight. Gossip surrounds us, it's something we can't stop, so then - where does it start? We know that it starts from ourselves, so maybe it's time to change that; time for us to learn from our mistakes and grow up.

It's time for us to stop being immature, making up little stories that have very little or even no truth at all.

way to ruin my morning. -

SHUT UP (: thank you.
stop repeating yourself & lecturing me,
stop saying i take things to the extreme.
don't tell me to clear the dishes early in the morning.
& SHUT UP FOR ONCE.
i was having a good morning,
you had to ruin it.
thanks alot mom.

Nothing's turned out how you wanted - Monday, February 2, 2009

So, I think people have to learn to accept the fact that if something isn't yours? It just isn't yours! There's no need to be rude & disrespectful to get what you want, because - you won't get it. Honestly, what do you gain from being such an ass? NOTHING AT ALL. Don't tell some guy that your friends are arriving, and that he won't fit in with them, JUST BECAUSE - you like someone that likes him. It's pretty obvious, idiot. No, this isn't about me, but it's about someone very close to me & he DOES NOT deserve to be treated in that manner. It's time for YOU to grow up; learn that you can't always get what you want in life. To me? You're great, you're like an older brother. To someone close to me? You're being an ass, and I act like I know nothing, because if I questioned you about what I knew & got mad at you? It would just create more tension & drama. Get OVER her, you've pretty much told her that you're IN LOVE with her, and she doesn't even care. So why make an enemy in someone - that could actually turn out to be a pretty good friend? I can't say anything straight to you, because I'd get in shit, but GROW UP? thhanks.

you spin my head right round, right round ;) - Sunday, February 1, 2009

withh a whole bunch of people,
watching them play with the wii,
just got back from starbucks,
uggh sore armss.

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